I think I slept funny, my neck is killing me as well as my lower back.

Work tonight. Maybe I'll tidy the apartment before I go...Mmmm maybe not. It'll just become messy again.

What the...I just found that I bought yesterday...Happy days~!

Today, was meant to be the most spectacular day ever. Well, I'm not 100% supersticious, but this Friday the 13th has been terrible. I got called in to the hospital, they really needed the staff, I also had papers to grade, so that didn't help.


Doesn't sound really bad, does it? Well...Today's my 30th birthday ._____.

I've heard whispers in the hallways, I've heard them speaking. A new person to join our ranks...

BAK-CHAN WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE HERE!!!!

I miss China. I keep saying it and I never do anything about it. Except go to Chinatown and submerge myself. But...It's not the same. You can't hear the music coming from the back of the stores. I miss that. But it's lovely when you just want to think.

I need to go out more, meet more people. I'm starting to feel like a hermit. Home, work, home work, then more work at the weekends. But I have to pay for Rinali's tuition.

I'm so behind in the worlds news, but I heard all about this explosion. I hope Rinali's okay!!! I just heard 'school' and 'explosion' and ;~~~; Call me Rinali!!! You still haven't told me where you are!! I'm worried sick. Really worried.

Aaah! Work tomorrow. Nng, don't wanna go .___.;;

I think I'll request a holiday...hopefully a week is enough notice, I never can remember. I need an assistant, anyone willing? 8DD?

Suppose I better go to bed now~!

I haven't seen him in a while. That's...that's good. I never want to see him again.

I've been throwing myself into work, and it's really helped. I have something to show people! It's something to help during operations, it'll cut procedure time down by 33.3%!!! I'm sure of it.

Just need to sort out a few kinks!!! X3!

No...

He...he can't be here. He can't. I don't want to hurt again. I don't want to be afraid...I...I..he can't.

Oh God....Oh God I can't stop shaking...I can't close my eyes...every...everytime I do...he's there...




Rinali? Where are you?

WORRIED KOMUI IS WORRIED!!!!!

She's not answering her phone. I can't get in touch with her.

Rinaliiii is you can somehow reeeead this....CALL ME OKAY ;O; My nerves can't take this...


Oh...and I...heard a name on the news...That...I hope I imagined. H-He's not here...is he? Oh please don't let him be here. I don't want to shatter again o___o It's not fun...

我想念母親
和父親
和我的妹妹


我覺得好孤單

(I really am sorry if the Chinese is wrong. I used a translator for Traditional.)

Maaaaa! American shows are so boring! Where's the emotion?!

Oooh but I had the best dumplings today~! With duck it was so good, but too much for one person. Maybe I'll take it in for lunch tomorrow! Some kind of sauce to go with it, mmmm!

Social life has once again become non-exsistant!

More news on the work front! Oly working Friday nights and Saturday nights at the hospital. But staying on call for weeknights!!


;0; Lenalee hasn't caaaaalled in two days!! I'm worried!!

I've decided to go back to China, just for a week. It's all I can afford. I've been away from my Linalee for far too long now. Phone calls can only do so much. The boys better have kept their distance from her!!

Well, things haven't been so bad anymore. The hospital said that if I wanted, I could cut down on my hours. Even though I'm contracted to a certain amount, I took them up on the offer. At least until I'm feeling better.

I'm getting more sleep at least!

I really need to go out more. This place can get so boring and soul destroying at times!

This is horrible.

My hands were shaking so bad last night that I couldn't do much, other than check on patients and tend to the less severe. This week, I've only had four hours sleep. And I have a class today aswell. I got sent home a few hours ago. I'm lucky I wasn't sheduled for any operations. Or that no one with imediate attention came in. I'd have done more damage than good.

Even caffiene isn't helping me. I actually fell asleep on my first break. Which I oddly got at the right time...

I don't want to do anything. Sitting here with the laptop, watching TV, yawning every three seconds. Maybe I should just go to bed?

This can't be good for my health.

[10 minutes later]

Nooooooooo!!!

Work just called and they're under-staffed! They have 5 emergencies and need people in like 40 minutes ago...there goes my plans to sleep. What the HELL? What if I slip up?

......Better go.

Teenagers can be so annoying!!

I'm homesick....

Oh well, next class is due!

I broke my favourite mug today. It was one Lenalee got me for my birthday a few years ago. She painted the picture on it. I feel stupid, but I actually cried over it. It's only ceramic, but it....strangely held importance to me.

I did my hair today to try and cheer myself up. But it just looked strange. Even when she does the same, it still looks pretty. -Sigh.- I can't have her staying so far away! I should ask her and Aunty if she can come live with me! It's not good for her to be with distant family. And it's difficult to keep an eye on her when I'm so far away!

I think I fell asleep during class aswell...oops!

OH!! It s ready...AT LAST! HOURS OF SLAVING AWAY...Well the hours I have to myself Kekekeke -mad grin.-

[Can't be seen to those against the music ban.]

Japanese music is so strange. It seems like it's more popular out of Japan, than Chinese is out of China...I like it. But at the same time, I'm not completely impressed. Maybe it's because my Japanese isn't as fluent as I want it to be? -Sigh.-

As for the ban...it was laughable when I heard about it. But I'm rather enjoying the peace. Though to be honest, there are places that need music, or they just seem dead. Like bars. Coffee houses (okay I like music played quietly there.) and...and shops! What...what's going to happen for celebrations?

Does the ban go against people doing school rhymes? Do people get arrested for singing...I mean making up stupid little songs, with no instruments...
What about religion? The Christians here...are they forbidden to sing with an organ? I have so many questions, and I'm so confused.

At least I don't have to cringe in class by hearing obnoxious techno crap. One thing this city has over my old school.

It's the weekend, what better way to spend it than curled up in bed with a nice hot cup of coffee!

Hm, I really haven't done much. But I do have my class schedule sorted out! Broke down to units and sub-units! My students are so lucky!

Friday night I had the dull task of giving someone a cast...As dull as it was...For a Friday night...It was the best thing to happen all day. Show's how great that day was! -Cough.- I managed to shove off my paper work aswell X3!!!

Coffee's getting cold!

Bliss. A whole night off to myself~! Such a rare thing for me these days. -Sigh- I find myself with no idea what to do though. -Pouts- I could call Lenalee~~! Ah...but she'll probably be asleep. Such a good girl X3

Oh...Maybe I could work on that experiment...ho ho ho >D Won't the class just love me for this~~!

I'm out of precious coffee...The world is at an end!!!